आमाले न सिखाएको सब्द, डर।

१.
डर भन्ने कुरो खै किन छुदै छुयेन मेरो जिन्दगिलाइ। डरौथे त केवल आफ्नै बाउ सित। बाजे सित त डराइन, जसलाई देख्नासाथ सारा गाउ तर्सिन्थे।  बाजे को चप्पल गालामा न परेको होइन, यिनले माया पनि उतिनै गर्थे।

सायद मेरी आमाले मलाई डर को परिभासा न पढाएको भएर हुन सक्छ।  मन मा जे आयो तेही गरे।  जिन्दगीले जता डोर्यायो उतै लर्के।

:डी, त्यसो भन्न खोजेको होइन कि लाइफ मा डारौदै डराइन।  याद छ मेरो अंग्रेजी को पहिलो प्रिजन्टेसन, दुइ मिनट सबै को अगाडी ठिङ्ग उभेको, हात र खुट्टा ले झन्डै जवाब दिएको। अनि त्यो दिन कहाँ बिर्सन सक्छु जब उसलाई डेढ घण्टा लगाएर प्रोपोज गरेको थिए, सातो गाको थियो उसले गालि गर्छ कि भनेर।

२. …

थारु को हुन् ?

म सानै छदा कहिले काही हाम्रो घर मा पहाडी केरा को डोको बोकेर  आउनु हुन्थ्यो, एक जना बाजे।  म हजुरबा लाइ सोध्थे को हुन् इनि भनेर।  हजुरबा ले इनि मेरो मित हुन् भन्थे।  हामि केरा खादै रमौंथ्यो र मित बाजे संग गफ गर्थ्योउ। बाजे ले हामि लाइ नेपाली बोल्न सिकाउनु हुन्थ्यो।  बाजे १ हप्ता पछि फर्किनु हुन्थ्यो, १ बोरा चामल त्यहि डोको मा राखेर।     

अहिले म सोचेर दङ्ग पर्छु।  मित बाजे कोसौ टाढा पहाड बाट डोको बोकेर हाम्रो गाउ पैदल आउनु हुन्थ्यो र पैदल नै चामल बोकेर फर्किनु हुन्थ्यो।  मोटर चल्दैनथ्यो त्यति बेला।   हजुरबा ले भन्नु हुन्छ उहा धेरै गरिब हुनुहुन्छ भनेर। पहाड  मा जिउनु गार्हो छ अरे।  

त्यसैले नै होला धेरै पहाडी हरु चामल लिन तराई झर्थे २० साल पहिले।

हजुरबा ले भन्नु हुन्छ, हाम्रो ४० बिघा जमिन थियो।   नवलपरासी का धेरै गाउ हरु मा थारु हरु जमिन्दार थिए। बिस्तारै पहाडी भाग बाट मानिस हरु तराई वोर्लिए।  थारु हरु ले इन्लाई सरह दिए।  

आज एकजाना पहाडी साथि ले को हुन् थारु र के का लागि आन्दोलन गरिरहेका छन् भनेर सोधे। मेरो कुनै जवाब थिएन।  म उसको अनुहार हेरेर मुस्काए मात्र।     

1 MIN reading: I have learned

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(This text, which I found on the Internet, is attributed to me . I did not write it, but I think worth reproducing here)

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them;
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back;
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm, for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something;
I’ve learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I’ve learned that no matter how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take it’s place.
I’ve learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re downhill are the ones to help you get back up.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry.
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean that they don’t love you with all they have.
I’ve learned that maturity had more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
I’ve learned that your family won’t always be there for you.
I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to forgive yourself.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.
I’ve learned that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will get hurt in the process.
I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.

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It’s All About Feeling

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Is it possible to increase your happiness or success by pushing your “energypendulum” in the direction you want it to go – towards more possessions, greater fame, and more intense pleasure? Doesn’t the pendulum always swing back in the opposite directioin?

There are times in this ceaseless cycle of hope and disappointment when we feel repelled by the sheer monotony of it all. Finding ourselves no longer attracted by the excitement of a meaningless chase, we long for rest. But only if rest is sought within can lasting peace be really ours. Any rest we find outwardly – in retirement, let us say, to a quit cottage by the sea – is as temporary as our emotional joys and sorrows. That “peace” ends when we come to experience it as boredom. When this happens, we set out once again on our former quest for excitement. And so – interminably – it goes on.

Everything in existence is balanced by its polar opposite. Heat is balanced by cold, light by darkness, and positive by negative. In humankind, duality is found in the opposites of male and female, joy and sorrow, love and hatred. Wherever one quality exists, its complementary opposite will also be found.

The overall level of an ocean is not altered by the height of the waves at its surface. The higher the wave, the deeper is its trough. Our essential consciousness, similarly, remains unaffected by our emotional ups and downs. Pleasure and pain, success and failure, fulfilment and disappointment – these are but waves on the surface of calm, intutive feeling.

The Law of Duality is present in our lives, too. Because our emotions are tied to the post of egoconsciousness, every joy that we experience emotionally must be balanced in our own emotions by an equal and opposite sorrow. Every personal success must be balanced by an equally personal failure; every personal fulfilment must be balanced by a corresponding personal disappointmet.

The only state in which joy and other positive feelings are not balanced by opposites is in the state of superconsciousness. There, waves of emotion subside in calm, intuitive feeling. Joy, love and peace are realised, then, as absolutes, not as relativities, for they are attributes of Pure Consciousness.

Calm feeling is intution. When that calm feeling is disturbed, it becomes emotion. Until clarity of feeling is achieved, the one who meditates will be forever vacillating in purpose. Without devotion, indeed, in the form of deep yearning for the truth, you will not feel the incentive even to try to meditate deeply. Wisdom without devotion is like knowing that there is a good restaurant next door, and even committing its entire menu to memory, but not being hungry enough to go there and eat. The feeling quality is what makes it possible to commit oneself to the spiritual search.

When people think of the pure consciousness of God, they usually visualise an abstract mental state. Feeling is absent. Yet there is nothing inspiring, surely, about such abstractions. For, without love, how can we identify the fog with God? Feeling is as intrinsic to awareness as heat is to fire.

The Speaking Tree, Page: 16, 1, April, 2011

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Geopathic stress (GS)

Geopathic stress (GS) is when the Earth’s electromagnetic field becomes distorted. The Earth resonates with an electromagnetic frequency of approximately 7.83 Hz (Schumann resonance), which falls within the range of (alpha) human brainwaves. Underground streams, sewers, water pipes, electricity, tunnels and underground railways, mineral formations and geological faults distort the natural resonance of the Earth thus creating geopathic stress. Electromagnetic (EMF) pollution is generated by most electrical appliances, electrical cables, transformers, hair dryers, electrical shavers, microwaves and mobile telephones. It has been found to be the common factor in most serious and long-term illnesses and psychological conditions. GS and EMF pollution have been found to be a common factor in many serious and long standing illnesses such as cancer, ME, sleep problems, cot deaths, fatigue, difficulty conceiving, learning difficulties and psychological conditions.

Steps

1. Consider feng shui. There is a strong correlation between Schumann Resonances and alpha brain rhythms 7-12Hz (König, 1979). The Schumann Resonance is the doorway to virtual-actual engineering, i.e. manifesting your desires. Having a strong Schumann Resonance Field permeating the environment is the key to effective feng shui because Schumann Resonance is the unifying force between Heaven’s chi (virtual) and Earth’s chi (actual). At its simplest, Schumann Resonance allows feng shui remedies to work better.

2. Reduce Electromagnetic pollution in your home and work space. Get rid of extraneous appliances, or keep them unplugged until needed. Electronics like computers and Tv’s are ALWAYS on ‘standby’ mode (even when turned ‘off’) and contribute to constant electromagnetic pollution.


Tips

* Purchase a surge protector/power strip to plug frequently used electronics into. You can shut the whole strip ‘off’ when you are out or not needing them (instead of having to unplug them all individually – also saves a lot of energy/pollution).

* Choose to not live right under/next to a power line, it makes a big difference. Don’t linger near high-power lines.

* Taking the time to feng shui your living or work space will completely alter the energy of the area, even a little goes a long way.

* Educate yourself as much as possible on EMF in order to take the necessary precautions and alter your surrounding with what control you do have in order to prevent too much interference to decrease whatever symptoms you personally experience if you happen to be one that is sensitive to EMF and aware that this is the cause of your symptoms.

Reference:

www.wikihow.com