Heart Surgery – Part 2

Dear friends, I underwent critical heart surgery last week. Yes, it was a tough time for me to cope with every moment of the 10 days inside the care unit. I have a very distinct and peculiar experience of the surgical procedure that I am so keen to blog and I would love to share this wonderful experience. 

Heart ♥ Surgery! you might be wondering what kind of heart surgery was it that I am so keen to share with. This surgery doesn’t take tools like knives and scissors to cut my heart and take off the diseases out but the breath. Yes, the only breath tool to pierce my heart, cut the sections and fix the disorders. Here the doctor is me and relied only upon the guidance provided by the teacher. Confused right? Dear friends, I was suffering from the most common diseases around the world happening in this modern era originated from the cravings that caused full of harmful energies ruling my body and mind that tangled uncountable knots inside my heart and was becoming too heavy to carry along.

This procedure of surgery or the heart purifying technique is called Vipassana. I went my first 10 days Vipassana Meditation course 10 years ago in July 2010 at Dharmasringa, Kathmandu. I have already shared that experience by writing on my blog. If you like to read that post before continuing this you can find it here. Also before proceeding further I would like to briefly discuss what Vipassana is. Vipassana, meaning to see things as they really are, is one of India’s most ancient techniques of meditation. It was taught in India more than 2500 years ago as a universal remedy for universal ills, i.e., an Art of Living. The technique of Vipassana Meditation is taught at ten-day residential courses during which participants learn the basics of the method, and practice sufficiently to experience its beneficial results. There are no charges for the courses – not even to cover the cost of food and accommodation. All expenses are met by donations from people who, having completed a course and experienced the benefits of Vipassana, wish to give others the opportunity to also benefit.

Background 

It was the month of July of the year 2010 when I learned the Vipassana Meditation technique for the first time. Like my other life events, this too was sudden, completely unplanned. It’s been ten years now and two things are still crystal clear in my head. The first thing that I laughed like I went crazy, I could not stop for almost a dozen of minutes, for a joke created by a meditator friend with the assistant teacher and the second that the tears rolled down my eyes for I went too emotional, why wasn’t I introduced with such teachings earlier. Why then? 

After 10 years in the first week of September, this time too I went to take the ten days course at sudden but this time at Dhamma Janani, Lumbini. For 10 years in between many ups and ups came into my life. I practiced Vipassana almost daily because it was diluted in my blood and there is no other way to get rid of it. This time I neither cried nor laughed but achieved a higher level of expertise. But how? Imagine a parrot in a cage when freed in the open sky, like a fish in an aquarium when left in the ocean. Yes, it was similar kind of feeling I experienced this time. Like I was free from the extreme burden. Like the entire knots that were tied one by one as the past deeds, got untied in 10 days. Like my stoned heavy heart transformed to feather light. Like it was successful heart surgery. Like I got a new life, a rejuvenated and pure one. 

Day 0 – Registration & Introduction day 

This is the day when people from different parts of the world come together to become a saint for 10 days at the Vipassana Meditation Centre leaving the material world, friends and families behind. Like other people, I too was excited enough on this day as if I was attending the course for the first time. During and after the registration process at 1 pm we introduced with each other and had a friendly conversations with other students. After breakfast in the evening, we were reminded of the rules and regulations basically the Pancha Sila – the five precepts in the mini Hall and begged for the knowledge with the teacher for the meditation technique in the main hall. 

The struggling minutes 

The level of curiosity on day 1 is the highest as everyone is very keen to learn a completely new thing in their life. This is for the new students. As I was an old one I had a different high feeling. I was given the first row of the entire members very near to the teacher’s seat in the main hall and a private room to practice, the meditation cell (शुन्यगार). Well, the first day goes off very soon by learning and practicing the Samadhi – the breathing technique. On day 2 and day 3 the curiosity curve falls sharp down and the impatience level increases high for them who overlooked & over expected what Vipassana was. Because it becomes difficult moment by moment to resist the silence and the pain coming out of the body due to prolonged single position seat. People start breaking the noble silence and begin murmuring with others. The frequency of changing the body position goes up and many starts to stay outside the main hall. The rest follow the track very patiently by learning and practicing the Samadhi technique. It was not that easy for me too in the beginning because it was already 10 years when I made my first attempt. The old students are given only two times to eat in a day. The morning breakfast at 6:30 am and the afternoon lunch at 11 am. The lack of evening meal was killing me and my stomach. The day 4- the teaching of the Vipassana technique also called Pragya– seeing the sensation as they are in every single part of the body, which gave a new hope as the story added a new chapter and the curiosity graph slightly rose up. 

The adhisthan – Strong determination 

It looks very easy and simple to see students sitting in a position without a move with a completely straight back and head for hours. Every day at 8 am-9 am, 2:30 pm-3:30 pm and 6 pm-7 pm we have to follow the adhisthan meaning strong determination. Here one has to make a strong decision to sit down in one position without moving the hands, leg and body for an hour. These hours were the most difficult and dangerous times for newcomers. Initially for two days, I had forgotten about the adhisthan. On the third day when I read the rules in detail, I suddenly realized. The same day from 6 pm-7 pm onwards I kept the promise and I was able to successfully follow the adhisthan rule. By the evening of day 4 we had learned the Vipassana technique of meditation. Most people used to think that they get rid of the samadhi technique from day 4 but it is not like that the Vipassana technique is directly dependent on the samadhi. The more good they are at samadhi the better they will perform in Vipassana. 

The miracle moments 

On day 6 during the one to one combined meditation with the teacher, he asked about the progress of Vipassana. I explained to him in a brief way but the detailed follow like this: On day 4 in the evening as soon as I started learning the Vipassana technique every part of my body started shivering one by one. This was not the first time I practiced this technique, I practiced Vipassana for 10 years but I never felt such intense sensation before. My entire body had continuous vibrations. The more I focused the clearer was the sensation. Slowly the vibration started causing a better feeling. Even outside the meditation hall, my whole body was experiencing vibrations and good feelings. The next day during the morning sitting I started to feel better. Though surprised, every moment was a wonderful experience. During the morning adhisthan the first free flow of my second Vipassana course occurred. It remained for more than 5 minutes. This sensation was more intensive than I used to have earlier. Till then every pain in my body was being converted into a good feeling. As soon as I felt the pain sensation in my legs and back it didn’t hurt but caused a better sensation and a free flow. My heart started to feel lighter and lighter. This is how I wish to die, I wished, I murmured. From 9 am to 11am group sitting the same day I went to the meditation cell to practice. In a few minutes, I felt another free flow from the top of the head to the tip of the toe. This was even more intense than that of the first one. The intense sensation was not bearable. The whole body was experiencing waves like ripple effects from the top to the bottom and filled with immense pleasure. Suddenly I felt like I could not resist this pleasure and broke into a huge laughter. I went crazy. I could not stop. I came out of the cell immediately and took a break for 5 minutes. Pleasure, pleasure, and pleasure everywhere in my whole body, every little part of my body was experiencing tremendous pleasure. Like all sadness was gone. Like no cravings anymore nor any suffering. Only pleasure. Only pleasure. During the afternoon practice session in the main hall on the same day just after the lunch break, I ejaculated due to continuous pleasure. Do you believe? Yes, it happened. I instantly left my seat, headed towards my room and took a shower. After returning back I went to the meditation cell for practice. The pleasure feeling was still remaining but gross and mild. I continued practicing. This was miraculous day 5. Did I enter into the next level of Vipassana Meditation? I asked myself. 

When the teacher heard this story he asked me how many times I completed 10 days Vipassana course. When I told him this was my second one after 10 years then he appraised me telling that I did the good practice. It was a proud moment for me. 

Similarly, on the 6th and 7th day I continually practiced Vipassana almost every moment and I experienced the most intensive sensation throughout my body I ever felt before. I also felt like I had no sorrow or pain then. Every physical pain used to convert into a beautiful experience. I could sit for hours meditating. I even felt deep sensation while walking, eating, sitting, sleeping, or even hearing the sound of the bell and the voice of the teacher. I felt no fear when insects were crawling throughout my body. Instead, their crawl on the surface of the skin brought sensation and sometimes caused free flow. All sensation either gross or intense used to make my heart feel lighter. Like the knots inside my heart getting unwinded one by one. The knots of old cravings. Making my heart cleaner and pure. Getting healed moment by moment. Amazing. 

Day 8 reminded me of my family as there were only two days remaining for practice. The thoughts in my head made me feel disturbed and distracted. I used to manage the distraction but the sensation was gross then. The more the thoughts the grosser was the sensation. The free flow was still felt but after longer periods when the intense sensation was felt. 

The friendship day 

A new excitement was there on day 9 as the alarm for day 10 had already been rung. Day 9 passed away by making the plans for day 10. Day 10 was the friendship day. After keeping my mouth shut up for complete 9 days I broke the noble silence on the last day. Like mine everyone’s face had a wonderful big smile and their heart filled with glory and joy. Greetings and wishes. Small groups were formed and gossips went unstoppable. The first topic of the discussion was the 9 days of meditation experience. And the rest their own. There was a video show, book show and donation program on this day. 

Day 11 – The exit day 

After the morning meditation and breakfast on day 11, I washed the bed sheet and pillow cover. I returned home after clearing. 

Conclusion 

It is very difficult to make people understand who have never practiced Vipassana what exactly it is by explaining its process. Vipassana can only be understood when practically done and experienced. There are some terms like Panchsheel, Samadhi, Pragya, adhisthan, free flow, equanimity, etc which are completely practical terms that might be difficult to get. One should take at least 10 days of Vipassana Meditation course to experience life. Many people misunderstand about Vipassana and relate it with different caste and religion. But the one who has practiced it without expectations has benefitted the most. Those people have known the true meaning of life – The Art of Living. The true dhamma. 

The core objective of this article is not only to share my experience but also to motivate people so that more and more people can learn this knowledge and take advantage of the Vipassana practice. I have talked about sensation many times here. One might wonder how the only sensation in the body can heal one’s heart-“chitta” and soul. People might wonder but it’s true that every single emotion that a person feels causes sensation in one or more parts of our body. This is it, Vipassana teaches us to see those sensations as they are. By not reacting on it, by letting it just like it. But the perfect equanimity should be maintained. Equanimity is the tool to measure the progress of Vipassana. This is how by the continuous practice of Vipassana one can rule over their own mind. Either sad times or the happiest moments. 

Very soon I will be having my third 10 days Vipassana Meditation course in the near future. 

Let all beings be happy, let all beings be liberated, let all beings be peaceful and harmony, let all beings share my merits.

सबैको भलो होस्, सबै को कल्याण होस्।
सबका भला हो, सबका कल्याण हो।

Valentine 2007

10 years from now, I was a final year engineering student at Kathmandu University, Dhulikhel, Nepal. This was our last winter vacation at KU and I along with some of my friends had planned to stay at the college. We passed time by working on our academic projects, watching movies, learning guitar & drums. The objective was to enjoy the final moments there at fullest. That we didn’t miss.

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We climbed the roof of the bus to travel our way.

It was 11th of Feb, 2007 in the evening after dinner when we suddenly decided to visit Charikot in order to enjoy snow fall. It didn’t take time to bag-pack and we left early next morning. Full of excitement and enthusiasm we had. I remember we climbed the roof of the bus to travel our way.

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We could see the range of the Himalayas, feel the chilled weather but the snow was far away to reach

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Valentine 2007

In the search for snow fall we reached the place but were saddened by the drought encountered. We could see the range of the Himalayas, felt the chilled weather but the snow was far away to reach. We went on asking people where we can find snow nearby but the replies from them made us feel down. They told us to visit places near Jiri to experience snow fall. We had lesser cash and lacked time, hence we stayed in the middle, passed the night there & enjoyed the beautiful range of Himalayas from the distant.

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We enjoyed the beautiful range of Himalayas from the distant.

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We clicked group pics.

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Valentine 2007

After wasting a complete day in the search for snow, the next morning we left for KU. On the way we sang songs, cracked jokes, clicked group pics. We chose our ultimate goal and that was to celebrate and enjoy.

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We jumped over our feet.

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We posed.

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We played and played and played with the snow.

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Happiness had crossed its limit.

On our way back, we saw a hill covered with snow. We were delighted to see the scene. Let’s climb the hill, one of my friend giggled. All of us mourned for a moment then shouted yes, lets do it. Immediately, we asked the conductor to stop the bus and started to climb the mountain.

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We played until we got exhausted.

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I could not believe myself, finally I did it.

Ah! wow! gracious! I touched the snow for the first time in my life. Not only me, everyone of us screamed, jumped over our feet. Touched it, felt it, very light, cool, soft, powdered fluff. There wasn’t any limit to our happiness. Our dream came true. Finally, we did it. We played and played and played with the stale snow.

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We played with the snowman too.

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We took rest. We were exhausted.

We did all the things that people do in the televisions and movies. We enjoyed until our excitement faded. However, we achieved our destiny. Before it was too late we planned to return back. We climbed down the hill, we caught a bus and returned back to the source.

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Valentine 2007

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We climbed down the hill, we caught a bus and returned back to the source

The story hasn’t come to an end. It was a full of surprise when we experienced the fresh snow falling the next morning. It was 14th of Feb, 2007. It did after 60 years. All the people came out of  their houses. To touch it, to feel it, to experience it, the white powdered fluff. Everyone had a smile on their face, full of joy.

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Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

I felt like the God listened to us, our prayer. God appeared in front of us. I celebrated my Valentine 2007 with the nature of God.

10 years has been passed. I feel like it was yesterday. All I can have now are the only memories of the past. All I can do now is to feel nostalgic. I am getting jealous of myself. I wish I could bring back my days.

Thank you, you all are God for us!

“Delicious smell of the fish curry”, murmured the e-rickshaw driver. He added, “it’s navaratan time. It was my turn beside him to speak on, one of my favorite topic. Instantly I replied, who cares, nobody can stop him who eats. I appended, God, most people don’t believe. Do you, my brother? Yes, I believe he whispered. Why do you believe God, brother? God has given me what I have.

Don’t know why but I always turn offensive when the topic arises on God. I can’t resist myself to give my views on it. I believe and always convey to all that God is null and void. It is nothing but an entity created by human being.

Well brother, but all the things that you have are the fruits that you have earned through your hard labor. I don’t think that God has given you a single thing, did he? I follow because all people follow. And hence I go to temple too. He puts his example, if you are good and people starts to believe and follow you then I must also follow you.

I replied with a mild giggle and falsified his example. My friend that is not always true, he fell quite which assessed that he got confused or determined. I continued, God is created by us and hence we wrote about him in books “Ved and Puran” thus people started to promote it and people who feared started to believe on God.

A complete silence was there until I reached my destination. I de-boarded, paid the charges and spelled my last words. Brother, thank you, you all are God for us. I looked at his innocent face then there I found not more than a decent smile.

I believe that there is only one God for me, the Humanity and we should worship what humanity serves. I mean to say there is God within us, in you, in me and within every human being. We should learn to find out God there, the existing Supremo as we see him in the stones of the temples. Thus, by respecting, caring and loving each other we can make this world more beautiful, wonderful and peaceful.

 

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सन २०१० के जुलाई महीने में मैं सम्मर वेकेशन मनाने काठमांडू गया। वर्ल्ड कप का नशा हर व्यक्ति में छाया हुआ था। फाइनल देखने के लिए दोस्त के रूम पर बियर के बोतल खुली और वर्ल्ड कप ख़तम होने के बाद घर लौटने की तैयारी करी|

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1 महीने की छुट्टी अभी शेष थी, दिन कैसे बिताउ समझ में नहीं आ रहा था। अचानक दिमाग में कुछ आया, मार्टिन को कॉल करके आईडिया लिया. तुरंत सम्बंधित निकाय को कॉल करके डेट्स फाइनल किया। रिसीवर से आवाज आई आपको आज ही पंजीकरण करवाना होगा और कल से ही आपके कोर्स की शुरूवात होगी, जल्दी करियेगा सीट बहुत कम रह गयी है।  हमने जल्दी से अनु को बाइक लेके आने को बोला।  हम दोनों होंडा शो रूम पहुंचे और मेरी आईडिया अनु को बताया और वो भी शामिल हो गया।  आधे घंटे के अंदर हमारा पंजीकरण होगया और हमें एक बुकलेट दी गई रटने के लिए।  

अति उत्सुक था और मन में थोड़ा भय भी, क्यों की अगले १२  दिन मेरे जिंदगी के ऐसे छण बिताने जा रहे थे जो पहले कभी एक्सपीरियंस नहीं किया था ।  

अगले दिन सुबह ७ बजे अनु और मैं ऑफिस पहुंचे, शायद थोड़ी जल्दी पहुंच गए, ४ लोग पहले से बैठे हुए थे। आधे घंटे में ऑफिस का वेटिंग रूम भर चूका था, सीट के एब्सेंस में कई लोग खड़े थे, करीबन २०० लोग होंगे मेल, फीमेल और बुजुर्ग मिलाके। सब के हाथ में कम से कम एक बैग या एक सूटकेस था और आपस में खुसूरफुसुर कर रहे थे। समय होचुका था, ऑफिसर ने आके अनाउंसमेंट किया : सबको हॉल की तरफ जाना है, शांत रह कर आचार्य (गुरु) जी से १ घंटे का प्रवचन ग्रहण करना है।  प्रवचन के बाद सबको बैच में बांटा गया, हर बैच को विंगर में बैठने की सलाह दी गयी। विंगर एक एक करके रवाना हो रहे थे। वैसे ही हम भी एक विंगर में बैठके रवाना हो गए।  

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अभी तक हमें बताया गया था की हमें १० दिन कंटिन्यू बगैर बोले ध्यान करना है, हम धर्मश्रृंगा के ओर प्रस्थान कर रहे थे।  काले बादल छाए हुए थे और जैसे ही शिवपुरी पहाड़ों पे चढ़ना शुरू किया वैसे ही बारिश होने लगी, यह शुभ घडी का संकेत था हमारे लिए।  

गंतव्य पे पहुंचते ही हमने चेक इन किया, मोबाइल फ़ोन जमा करना पड़ा और हमें अकोमोडेशन के रेगुलेशंस बताया गया।  अनु का रूम मेरे रुम से काफी दूर आलोट किया गया था।  घने जंगल के बिच में, मध्य पहाड़ी से सारा काठमांडू का नजारा दिखता था, हल्की बारिश और ऐसे मौसम में किसका मन शांत न हो। ऐसा लग रहा था की आधी मोक्ष की प्राप्ति कोर्स सुरु होने से पहले ही मिल गई।  शाम के डिस्कोर्स में १० दिन की रूटीन बताया गया और कंसल्ट करने के लिए एक आचार्य आल्लोट किये गए।  अगले १० दिनों तक किसी को कुछ बोलने की इजाजत नहीं थी, ना ही कोई इशारा करने की।  किसी को कुछ दिक्कत हो तो वालंटियर्स को इन्फॉर्म करने को बताया गया।  रात को ९ बजे विश्राम करने को अनुमति दी गई| 

सुबह ४ बजे मॉर्निंग बेल बजा, आधे घंटे में रेडी हो कर मैडिटेशन हॉल जाना था।  सबको बैठने के लिए सीट मिली हुई थी।  कोर्स का पहला दिन था, सारे शांत थे, बोलता था तो सिर्फ ऑटोमेटेड स्पीकर्स।  वो कुछ समय इंस्ट्रक्शंस देता और हम उसके बताए हुए कमांड्स को प्रैक्टिस करने को ट्राई करते| यह प्रक्रिया दिन भर कंटिन्यू रहता था।  करीब ११ बजे अपने आचार्य के साथ कंसल्ट करने की परमिशन थी जिसमे हम अपना एक्नॉलेजमेंट देते थे और डाउट्स क्लियर करते थे। सुबह आधे घंटे का ब्रेकफास्ट, दोपहर को डेढ़ घंटे का लंच और शाम को आधे घंटे का डिनर छोड़ कर हर एक डेढ़ घंटे में ५ मिनट की ब्रेक मिलता था।  शाम को साढ़े ८ बजे गुरु जी का डिस्कोर्स अटेंड करते थे।  बाकि सारा समय सुबह ४ से लेकर रात को ९ बजे तक सब्जेक्ट की प्रैक्टिस करते रहते थे।  पुरे कोर्स को २ सब्जेक्ट में डिवाइड किया गया था : पहला ३ दिन १ सब्जेक्ट पे प्रैक्टिस किया और दूसरा बाकी के ७ दिन।

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धीरे धीरे दिन बीत रहा था, रोज कुछ ना कुछ सीखने को मिल रहा था, ऐसा लग रहा था ज्ञान के सागर मे तैर रहा हूँ| बहोट आनंद आ रहा था| परंतु कुछ लोग परेशान होने लगे थे, मेरे रूममेट्स रात होते ही बाते करने लगते थे और अब वो शैयाँ कुछ हद तक टूट चुका था. हमने भी एक बार प्रयास किया अनु से बात करने का लेकिन वॉलंटियर्स ने माना कर दिया| बहुत को वॉर्निंग मिलने लगी थी, इससे पता चल रहा था की इंसान की बोलने की आदत बहुत बुरी तरह से लगी है और यह आसानी से नही छूट सकती|

पाँचवा दिन था, सुबह सुबह 5-7 लोग गुरु जी के साथ परामर्श कर रहे थे| हमारे बाद गुरु जी ने एक दोस्त से पूछा: शरीर मे कुछ फील हो रहा है या नही? जवाब था: मैइ मेरे शरीर के इक्कीससो अंगो को फील कर रहा हूँ| यह सुन के दूसरा दोस्त हसने लगा और उसकी हसी देख कर हम सब भी हसने लगे और गुरु जी भी| गुरु जी ने हसी रोकने को कहा, और हसने का बेफायदा भी बताया, सब लोग शांत हो गये सिवाए मेरे और वो जिसने शुरूवात की थी| गुरु जी ने बाहर जाने की सलाह दी , हम बाहर जा कर खूब हसे, हसी रुकने के बाद वापस अपनी सीट पर जा कर बैठ गये| उस रात मैने बहुत सोचा , सोचते सोचते अचानक से आँखो से आँसू टपकने लगे| अजीब सी अनुभूति होने लगी और एहसास हुआ की मुझे इस तरह नही हसना चाहिए था, बहुत बुरा फील हो रहा था| साथ ही साथ ऐसा भी लग रहा था जैसे मुझे आज कुछ कीमती चीज़ मिली हो जो बहुत कम लोगो को मिलती है|

वो चीज़ जिसे मैने बरसो पहले खो दिया था. लग रहा था अंधेरे जीवन मे सूरज की पहली किरण पड़ी हो| ज्ञान के सागर मे रो रहा था लेकिन खुशी के आँसू टपक रहे थे, अपने आप को कोसने लगा, ये ज्ञान मुझे पहले क्यूँ नही मिला, पहले क्यूँ नही मिला|

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दशवा दिन मेलमिलाप वाला दिन था, सब लोग आपस मे बाते कर सकते थे, सुख दुख की बाते बता सकते थे| सबके चेहरे पे खुशी की रौनक थी, 9 दिन बाद जो खुलके बात करने को मिला था| आपस मे सारे पहचान कर रहे थे और अपने एक्सपीरियेन्स बाँटने मे लगे हुए थे, कोई बुक्स खरीदने मे व्यस्त था तो कोई फोटो खिचने मे| कोई खुश था वंडरफुल एक्सपीरियेन्स को पाकर तो कोई बस यूँ ही|

अगले दिन सुबह वीपास्साना कोर्स का अंतिम अनुभूति करा और 9 बजे चेक आउट करके अनु और मै घर लौट आए|

कहते है हिंदू कोई धर्म नही, यह जीने की एक सैली है वैसे ही वीपास्साना भी जीने का तरीका सिखाती है, खुश रहना सिखाती है, जी हाँ खुश रहना सिखाती है| यह कोर्स में 95% प्रॅक्टिकल करवाया जाता है| इसके रोज अभ्यास करने से नैतिक ज्ञान की प्राप्ति होती है, समाज, देश और संसार को सही राह पे चलना सिखाती है. यह आज मे जीना सिखाती है|

A Thought into an Action

It started when a car was pooled and the front seat was chosen. A continuous horn was blown by the driver on the busy street. He was suggested not to make noise and was asked to drive peacefully. The fatal consequences of blowing horn in a busy street, residential areas,
school premises & hospital areas were elaborated. The horn was pulled off immediately and the subject was modified. A complete serene environment was created throughout the way until the destination was reached.

This happened to me when I caught a car in the morning for my office. When I reached the destination, I offered him 10 rupee tips along with the rent but he instantly denied the earlier, accepting the later and he gave a huge smile at his face. He said, “Bhai (Brother), you already have offered me tips before but I denied then too”. It is very generous & fortunate for such kind of people around us who understand and care for the environment.

Well, there isn’t any connection between the tips and the environment. However, I am writing this because it is we people who can make a relation between them. We lend tips to waiters at restaurants but we forget what we are offering them for. Why can’t we think for all services which are provided generously and are one or other way related directly or indirectly with the betterment of our environment must be applauded & awarded? For e.g. scavengers who collect the waste from your home, workers who clean the streets, shopkeepers who offer paper bags while you purchase goods, drivers who are calm and drive safely following each and every traffic rules, etc. These services are anyhow related with our environment and we are very few of us who appreciate their work and
award them for their better services.

In my opinion, tips are offered for the best services that are provided and to motivate the servicemen to work more sincerely and not because these are fashion or trend that we have to make. We can make difference by bringing fractional changes in ourselves and hence this may lead to
the construction of a sincere & serene world.

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बेहुली अनि उ

जब ऊ रुदै आफ्नो जन्म दिने घर छाड्छे
आमा म जादिन भनि कराउछे अनि चिच्यौछे।

उसले हेर्छ अनि मन निराश पार्छ
मन खिन्न बनाउदै टुलु टुलु हेरी रहनछ।

आज ऊ बिहानै उठ्छे हात मुख धोई चुल्हो जलाउछे
चेली बेटी संग कुरा गर्छे अनि खै के कुरा मा खितकी छाडेर हास्छे।

उसले फेरी हेर्छ मन गद गद पार्छ
अनि हिजो को उसको रुवाई सम्झेर मन बिचल्ली मा पार्छ।

ऊ बिहानी भर सोचेर बस्छ अन्योल मा पर्छ
साथि भाइ संग गएर वार्तालाप गर्छ।

रुवाई उसको महत्वपुर्ण हथियार हो एउटा ले व्यंग्य गर्छ
हिज उसले त्यो हथियार मा बेस्क्नी धार लगाएकी हो।

भोलि देखि उसले यसलाई प्रयोगमा ल्याउनेछे
मन मा लागेका आफ्नो स्वार्थ पुरा गर्नेछे।

थप्दै अगाडी बढ्छ, होइन, बेदना मा डुबेकी थि उ
आमा संग को वर्षौ को संगत छाड्नु परेको थियो।

वर्षौ बसेको घर अनि साथि-संगिनी त्याग्नु परेको थियो
नया ठाउ अनि नया घर अपनाउनु परेको थियो।

जब ऊ रुदै आफ्नो जन्म दिने घर छाड्छे
आमा म जादिन भनि कराउछे अनि चिच्यौछे।

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आमाले न सिखाएको सब्द, डर।

१.
डर भन्ने कुरो खै किन छुदै छुयेन मेरो जिन्दगिलाइ। डरौथे त केवल आफ्नै बाउ सित। बाजे सित त डराइन, जसलाई देख्नासाथ सारा गाउ तर्सिन्थे।  बाजे को चप्पल गालामा न परेको होइन, यिनले माया पनि उतिनै गर्थे।

सायद मेरी आमाले मलाई डर को परिभासा न पढाएको भएर हुन सक्छ।  मन मा जे आयो तेही गरे।  जिन्दगीले जता डोर्यायो उतै लर्के।

:डी, त्यसो भन्न खोजेको होइन कि लाइफ मा डारौदै डराइन।  याद छ मेरो अंग्रेजी को पहिलो प्रिजन्टेसन, दुइ मिनट सबै को अगाडी ठिङ्ग उभेको, हात र खुट्टा ले झन्डै जवाब दिएको। अनि त्यो दिन कहाँ बिर्सन सक्छु जब उसलाई डेढ घण्टा लगाएर प्रोपोज गरेको थिए, सातो गाको थियो उसले गालि गर्छ कि भनेर।

२. …

थारु को हुन् ?

म सानै छदा कहिले काही हाम्रो घर मा पहाडी केरा को डोको बोकेर  आउनु हुन्थ्यो, एक जना बाजे।  म हजुरबा लाइ सोध्थे को हुन् इनि भनेर।  हजुरबा ले इनि मेरो मित हुन् भन्थे।  हामि केरा खादै रमौंथ्यो र मित बाजे संग गफ गर्थ्योउ। बाजे ले हामि लाइ नेपाली बोल्न सिकाउनु हुन्थ्यो।  बाजे १ हप्ता पछि फर्किनु हुन्थ्यो, १ बोरा चामल त्यहि डोको मा राखेर।     

अहिले म सोचेर दङ्ग पर्छु।  मित बाजे कोसौ टाढा पहाड बाट डोको बोकेर हाम्रो गाउ पैदल आउनु हुन्थ्यो र पैदल नै चामल बोकेर फर्किनु हुन्थ्यो।  मोटर चल्दैनथ्यो त्यति बेला।   हजुरबा ले भन्नु हुन्छ उहा धेरै गरिब हुनुहुन्छ भनेर। पहाड  मा जिउनु गार्हो छ अरे।  

त्यसैले नै होला धेरै पहाडी हरु चामल लिन तराई झर्थे २० साल पहिले।

हजुरबा ले भन्नु हुन्छ, हाम्रो ४० बिघा जमिन थियो।   नवलपरासी का धेरै गाउ हरु मा थारु हरु जमिन्दार थिए। बिस्तारै पहाडी भाग बाट मानिस हरु तराई वोर्लिए।  थारु हरु ले इन्लाई सरह दिए।  

आज एकजाना पहाडी साथि ले को हुन् थारु र के का लागि आन्दोलन गरिरहेका छन् भनेर सोधे। मेरो कुनै जवाब थिएन।  म उसको अनुहार हेरेर मुस्काए मात्र।     

Alphabets Kids will Learn in Future

Alphabets kids will learn in Future.

A: Amazon.com
A shopping Website.

B: Blogspot.com
A free blog website from google.com.
Bing.com
A search engine from Microsoft.

C: Cnn.com
CNN News Website

D: Dropbox.com
Share Files on the Cloud

E: Ebay.com
A shopping Website.

F: Flipkart.com
A shopping Website.
Facebook.com
A social networking website.

G: Google.com
A Search Engine

H: Hostgator.com
A Website Hosting Website

I: Instagram.com
Share Pictures online.

J: Jabong.com
A shopping Website.

K: Kakaku.com
A Chinese Website

L: Live.com
Email Website from Microsoft

M: Msn.com
A Search Engine from Microsoft.

N: Naukri.com
A Job Search Website.

O: Olx.in
Sell your old products online

P: Photobucket.com
Share images online

Q: Quikr.com
Sell your old products online

R: Rediffmail.com
An Email Website

S: SurveyMonkey.com
Create Surveys and Get Answers online.

T: Twitter.com
A microblog Website

U: Upload.com
Upload and Share Files

V: Vimeo.com
Upload and Share Videos

W: Wikipedia.org
The Free Encyclopedia

X: Xe.com
Live Exchange Rates.

Y: Youtube.com
Upload and Share Videos

Z: Zomato.com
Search Restaurants Nearby.

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1 MIN reading: I have learned

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(This text, which I found on the Internet, is attributed to me . I did not write it, but I think worth reproducing here)

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them;
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back;
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm, for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something;
I’ve learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I’ve learned that no matter how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take it’s place.
I’ve learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re downhill are the ones to help you get back up.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry.
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean that they don’t love you with all they have.
I’ve learned that maturity had more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
I’ve learned that your family won’t always be there for you.
I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to forgive yourself.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.
I’ve learned that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will get hurt in the process.
I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.

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