Heart Surgery – Part 2

Dear friends, I underwent critical heart surgery last week. Yes, it was a tough time for me to cope with every moment of the 10 days inside the care unit. I have a very distinct and peculiar experience of the surgical procedure that I am so keen to blog and I would love to share this wonderful experience. 

Heart ♥ Surgery! you might be wondering what kind of heart surgery was it that I am so keen to share with. This surgery doesn’t take tools like knives and scissors to cut my heart and take off the diseases out but the breath. Yes, the only breath tool to pierce my heart, cut the sections and fix the disorders. Here the doctor is me and relied only upon the guidance provided by the teacher. Confused right? Dear friends, I was suffering from the most common diseases around the world happening in this modern era originated from the cravings that caused full of harmful energies ruling my body and mind that tangled uncountable knots inside my heart and was becoming too heavy to carry along.

This procedure of surgery or the heart purifying technique is called Vipassana. I went my first 10 days Vipassana Meditation course 10 years ago in July 2010 at Dharmasringa, Kathmandu. I have already shared that experience by writing on my blog. If you like to read that post before continuing this you can find it here. Also before proceeding further I would like to briefly discuss what Vipassana is. Vipassana, meaning to see things as they really are, is one of India’s most ancient techniques of meditation. It was taught in India more than 2500 years ago as a universal remedy for universal ills, i.e., an Art of Living. The technique of Vipassana Meditation is taught at ten-day residential courses during which participants learn the basics of the method, and practice sufficiently to experience its beneficial results. There are no charges for the courses – not even to cover the cost of food and accommodation. All expenses are met by donations from people who, having completed a course and experienced the benefits of Vipassana, wish to give others the opportunity to also benefit.

Background 

It was the month of July of the year 2010 when I learned the Vipassana Meditation technique for the first time. Like my other life events, this too was sudden, completely unplanned. It’s been ten years now and two things are still crystal clear in my head. The first thing that I laughed like I went crazy, I could not stop for almost a dozen of minutes, for a joke created by a meditator friend with the assistant teacher and the second that the tears rolled down my eyes for I went too emotional, why wasn’t I introduced with such teachings earlier. Why then? 

After 10 years in the first week of September, this time too I went to take the ten days course at sudden but this time at Dhamma Janani, Lumbini. For 10 years in between many ups and ups came into my life. I practiced Vipassana almost daily because it was diluted in my blood and there is no other way to get rid of it. This time I neither cried nor laughed but achieved a higher level of expertise. But how? Imagine a parrot in a cage when freed in the open sky, like a fish in an aquarium when left in the ocean. Yes, it was similar kind of feeling I experienced this time. Like I was free from the extreme burden. Like the entire knots that were tied one by one as the past deeds, got untied in 10 days. Like my stoned heavy heart transformed to feather light. Like it was successful heart surgery. Like I got a new life, a rejuvenated and pure one. 

Day 0 – Registration & Introduction day 

This is the day when people from different parts of the world come together to become a saint for 10 days at the Vipassana Meditation Centre leaving the material world, friends and families behind. Like other people, I too was excited enough on this day as if I was attending the course for the first time. During and after the registration process at 1 pm we introduced with each other and had a friendly conversations with other students. After breakfast in the evening, we were reminded of the rules and regulations basically the Pancha Sila – the five precepts in the mini Hall and begged for the knowledge with the teacher for the meditation technique in the main hall. 

The struggling minutes 

The level of curiosity on day 1 is the highest as everyone is very keen to learn a completely new thing in their life. This is for the new students. As I was an old one I had a different high feeling. I was given the first row of the entire members very near to the teacher’s seat in the main hall and a private room to practice, the meditation cell (शुन्यगार). Well, the first day goes off very soon by learning and practicing the Samadhi – the breathing technique. On day 2 and day 3 the curiosity curve falls sharp down and the impatience level increases high for them who overlooked & over expected what Vipassana was. Because it becomes difficult moment by moment to resist the silence and the pain coming out of the body due to prolonged single position seat. People start breaking the noble silence and begin murmuring with others. The frequency of changing the body position goes up and many starts to stay outside the main hall. The rest follow the track very patiently by learning and practicing the Samadhi technique. It was not that easy for me too in the beginning because it was already 10 years when I made my first attempt. The old students are given only two times to eat in a day. The morning breakfast at 6:30 am and the afternoon lunch at 11 am. The lack of evening meal was killing me and my stomach. The day 4- the teaching of the Vipassana technique also called Pragya– seeing the sensation as they are in every single part of the body, which gave a new hope as the story added a new chapter and the curiosity graph slightly rose up. 

The adhisthan – Strong determination 

It looks very easy and simple to see students sitting in a position without a move with a completely straight back and head for hours. Every day at 8 am-9 am, 2:30 pm-3:30 pm and 6 pm-7 pm we have to follow the adhisthan meaning strong determination. Here one has to make a strong decision to sit down in one position without moving the hands, leg and body for an hour. These hours were the most difficult and dangerous times for newcomers. Initially for two days, I had forgotten about the adhisthan. On the third day when I read the rules in detail, I suddenly realized. The same day from 6 pm-7 pm onwards I kept the promise and I was able to successfully follow the adhisthan rule. By the evening of day 4 we had learned the Vipassana technique of meditation. Most people used to think that they get rid of the samadhi technique from day 4 but it is not like that the Vipassana technique is directly dependent on the samadhi. The more good they are at samadhi the better they will perform in Vipassana. 

The miracle moments 

On day 6 during the one to one combined meditation with the teacher, he asked about the progress of Vipassana. I explained to him in a brief way but the detailed follow like this: On day 4 in the evening as soon as I started learning the Vipassana technique every part of my body started shivering one by one. This was not the first time I practiced this technique, I practiced Vipassana for 10 years but I never felt such intense sensation before. My entire body had continuous vibrations. The more I focused the clearer was the sensation. Slowly the vibration started causing a better feeling. Even outside the meditation hall, my whole body was experiencing vibrations and good feelings. The next day during the morning sitting I started to feel better. Though surprised, every moment was a wonderful experience. During the morning adhisthan the first free flow of my second Vipassana course occurred. It remained for more than 5 minutes. This sensation was more intensive than I used to have earlier. Till then every pain in my body was being converted into a good feeling. As soon as I felt the pain sensation in my legs and back it didn’t hurt but caused a better sensation and a free flow. My heart started to feel lighter and lighter. This is how I wish to die, I wished, I murmured. From 9 am to 11am group sitting the same day I went to the meditation cell to practice. In a few minutes, I felt another free flow from the top of the head to the tip of the toe. This was even more intense than that of the first one. The intense sensation was not bearable. The whole body was experiencing waves like ripple effects from the top to the bottom and filled with immense pleasure. Suddenly I felt like I could not resist this pleasure and broke into a huge laughter. I went crazy. I could not stop. I came out of the cell immediately and took a break for 5 minutes. Pleasure, pleasure, and pleasure everywhere in my whole body, every little part of my body was experiencing tremendous pleasure. Like all sadness was gone. Like no cravings anymore nor any suffering. Only pleasure. Only pleasure. During the afternoon practice session in the main hall on the same day just after the lunch break, I ejaculated due to continuous pleasure. Do you believe? Yes, it happened. I instantly left my seat, headed towards my room and took a shower. After returning back I went to the meditation cell for practice. The pleasure feeling was still remaining but gross and mild. I continued practicing. This was miraculous day 5. Did I enter into the next level of Vipassana Meditation? I asked myself. 

When the teacher heard this story he asked me how many times I completed 10 days Vipassana course. When I told him this was my second one after 10 years then he appraised me telling that I did the good practice. It was a proud moment for me. 

Similarly, on the 6th and 7th day I continually practiced Vipassana almost every moment and I experienced the most intensive sensation throughout my body I ever felt before. I also felt like I had no sorrow or pain then. Every physical pain used to convert into a beautiful experience. I could sit for hours meditating. I even felt deep sensation while walking, eating, sitting, sleeping, or even hearing the sound of the bell and the voice of the teacher. I felt no fear when insects were crawling throughout my body. Instead, their crawl on the surface of the skin brought sensation and sometimes caused free flow. All sensation either gross or intense used to make my heart feel lighter. Like the knots inside my heart getting unwinded one by one. The knots of old cravings. Making my heart cleaner and pure. Getting healed moment by moment. Amazing. 

Day 8 reminded me of my family as there were only two days remaining for practice. The thoughts in my head made me feel disturbed and distracted. I used to manage the distraction but the sensation was gross then. The more the thoughts the grosser was the sensation. The free flow was still felt but after longer periods when the intense sensation was felt. 

The friendship day 

A new excitement was there on day 9 as the alarm for day 10 had already been rung. Day 9 passed away by making the plans for day 10. Day 10 was the friendship day. After keeping my mouth shut up for complete 9 days I broke the noble silence on the last day. Like mine everyone’s face had a wonderful big smile and their heart filled with glory and joy. Greetings and wishes. Small groups were formed and gossips went unstoppable. The first topic of the discussion was the 9 days of meditation experience. And the rest their own. There was a video show, book show and donation program on this day. 

Day 11 – The exit day 

After the morning meditation and breakfast on day 11, I washed the bed sheet and pillow cover. I returned home after clearing. 

Conclusion 

It is very difficult to make people understand who have never practiced Vipassana what exactly it is by explaining its process. Vipassana can only be understood when practically done and experienced. There are some terms like Panchsheel, Samadhi, Pragya, adhisthan, free flow, equanimity, etc which are completely practical terms that might be difficult to get. One should take at least 10 days of Vipassana Meditation course to experience life. Many people misunderstand about Vipassana and relate it with different caste and religion. But the one who has practiced it without expectations has benefitted the most. Those people have known the true meaning of life – The Art of Living. The true dhamma. 

The core objective of this article is not only to share my experience but also to motivate people so that more and more people can learn this knowledge and take advantage of the Vipassana practice. I have talked about sensation many times here. One might wonder how the only sensation in the body can heal one’s heart-“chitta” and soul. People might wonder but it’s true that every single emotion that a person feels causes sensation in one or more parts of our body. This is it, Vipassana teaches us to see those sensations as they are. By not reacting on it, by letting it just like it. But the perfect equanimity should be maintained. Equanimity is the tool to measure the progress of Vipassana. This is how by the continuous practice of Vipassana one can rule over their own mind. Either sad times or the happiest moments. 

Very soon I will be having my third 10 days Vipassana Meditation course in the near future. 

Let all beings be happy, let all beings be liberated, let all beings be peaceful and harmony, let all beings share my merits.

सबैको भलो होस्, सबै को कल्याण होस्।
सबका भला हो, सबका कल्याण हो।

Valentine 2007

10 years from now, I was a final year engineering student at Kathmandu University, Dhulikhel, Nepal. This was our last winter vacation at KU and I along with some of my friends had planned to stay at the college. We passed time by working on our academic projects, watching movies, learning guitar & drums. The objective was to enjoy the final moments there at fullest. That we didn’t miss.

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We climbed the roof of the bus to travel our way.

It was 11th of Feb, 2007 in the evening after dinner when we suddenly decided to visit Charikot in order to enjoy snow fall. It didn’t take time to bag-pack and we left early next morning. Full of excitement and enthusiasm we had. I remember we climbed the roof of the bus to travel our way.

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We could see the range of the Himalayas, feel the chilled weather but the snow was far away to reach

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Valentine 2007

In the search for snow fall we reached the place but were saddened by the drought encountered. We could see the range of the Himalayas, felt the chilled weather but the snow was far away to reach. We went on asking people where we can find snow nearby but the replies from them made us feel down. They told us to visit places near Jiri to experience snow fall. We had lesser cash and lacked time, hence we stayed in the middle, passed the night there & enjoyed the beautiful range of Himalayas from the distant.

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We enjoyed the beautiful range of Himalayas from the distant.

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We clicked group pics.

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Valentine 2007

After wasting a complete day in the search for snow, the next morning we left for KU. On the way we sang songs, cracked jokes, clicked group pics. We chose our ultimate goal and that was to celebrate and enjoy.

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We jumped over our feet.

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We posed.

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We played and played and played with the snow.

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Happiness had crossed its limit.

On our way back, we saw a hill covered with snow. We were delighted to see the scene. Let’s climb the hill, one of my friend giggled. All of us mourned for a moment then shouted yes, lets do it. Immediately, we asked the conductor to stop the bus and started to climb the mountain.

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We played until we got exhausted.

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I could not believe myself, finally I did it.

Ah! wow! gracious! I touched the snow for the first time in my life. Not only me, everyone of us screamed, jumped over our feet. Touched it, felt it, very light, cool, soft, powdered fluff. There wasn’t any limit to our happiness. Our dream came true. Finally, we did it. We played and played and played with the stale snow.

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We played with the snowman too.

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We took rest. We were exhausted.

We did all the things that people do in the televisions and movies. We enjoyed until our excitement faded. However, we achieved our destiny. Before it was too late we planned to return back. We climbed down the hill, we caught a bus and returned back to the source.

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Valentine 2007

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We climbed down the hill, we caught a bus and returned back to the source

The story hasn’t come to an end. It was a full of surprise when we experienced the fresh snow falling the next morning. It was 14th of Feb, 2007. It did after 60 years. All the people came out of  their houses. To touch it, to feel it, to experience it, the white powdered fluff. Everyone had a smile on their face, full of joy.

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Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

Valentine 2007
Valentine 2007 – Saaga

I felt like the God listened to us, our prayer. God appeared in front of us. I celebrated my Valentine 2007 with the nature of God.

10 years has been passed. I feel like it was yesterday. All I can have now are the only memories of the past. All I can do now is to feel nostalgic. I am getting jealous of myself. I wish I could bring back my days.

Thank you, you all are God for us!

“Delicious smell of the fish curry”, murmured the e-rickshaw driver. He added, “it’s navaratan time. It was my turn beside him to speak on, one of my favorite topic. Instantly I replied, who cares, nobody can stop him who eats. I appended, God, most people don’t believe. Do you, my brother? Yes, I believe he whispered. Why do you believe God, brother? God has given me what I have.

Don’t know why but I always turn offensive when the topic arises on God. I can’t resist myself to give my views on it. I believe and always convey to all that God is null and void. It is nothing but an entity created by human being.

Well brother, but all the things that you have are the fruits that you have earned through your hard labor. I don’t think that God has given you a single thing, did he? I follow because all people follow. And hence I go to temple too. He puts his example, if you are good and people starts to believe and follow you then I must also follow you.

I replied with a mild giggle and falsified his example. My friend that is not always true, he fell quite which assessed that he got confused or determined. I continued, God is created by us and hence we wrote about him in books “Ved and Puran” thus people started to promote it and people who feared started to believe on God.

A complete silence was there until I reached my destination. I de-boarded, paid the charges and spelled my last words. Brother, thank you, you all are God for us. I looked at his innocent face then there I found not more than a decent smile.

I believe that there is only one God for me, the Humanity and we should worship what humanity serves. I mean to say there is God within us, in you, in me and within every human being. We should learn to find out God there, the existing Supremo as we see him in the stones of the temples. Thus, by respecting, caring and loving each other we can make this world more beautiful, wonderful and peaceful.

 

Spring MVC 4 and Simple Ajax Call

To understand this tutorial, I assume that you are already aware with Spring MVC and how it works. I will demonstrate here a simple Ajax call in Spring MVC where form data are posted and sent to the controller. The output of the ajax call is plain string text.

Step 1: Create Form

Step 2: Add Ajax Script

Step 3: Create Spring MVC Controller

Step 4: Create Model

Step 1 & 2 : Create Form & Add Ajax Script

Screenshots:

Screen 1: Loading the form and filling information

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Screen 2: Displaying data after clicking on submit

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Create a jsp file with name studentForm.jsp and add the following code:

<%@taglib uri=”http://www.springframework.org/tags/form” prefix=”form”%>
<html>
<head>
<title>Spring MVC Form Handling</title>
</head>
<body>

<h2>Student Information</h2>
<form:form id=”form” method=”POST” action=”addStudent.htm” >
<table>
<tr>
<td><form:label path=”name”>Name</form:label></td>
<td><form:input path=”name” /></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td><form:label path=”age”>Age</form:label></td>
<td><form:input path=”age” /></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td><form:label path=”id”>id</form:label></td>
<td><form:input path=”id” /></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td colspan=”2″>
<input type=”submit” value=”Submit” id=”submitButton” />
</td>
</tr>
</table>
</form:form>

<div id=”result”>
</div>

<script src=”https://ajax.googleapis.com/ajax/libs/jquery/1.12.4/jquery.min.js”> </script>
<script>
$(function(){

$(“#form”).submit(function(){

formData = $(“#form”).serialize();
alert(formData);
$.ajax({
type: “POST”,
url: “addStudent.htm”,
data : formData,
success : function(callback){
alert(callback);
$(“#result”).html(callback);
},
error : function(){
$(“#result”).html(“Error!”);
}
});

return false;
});
});
</script>

</body>
</html>

 

Step 3: Create Spring Controller

Create a java file with name studentController.java and add the following code:
package com.StudentController;
import org.springframework.stereotype.Controller;
import org.springframework.ui.ModelMap;
import org.springframework.web.bind.annotation.ModelAttribute;
import org.springframework.web.bind.annotation.RequestMapping;
import org.springframework.web.bind.annotation.RequestMethod;
import org.springframework.web.bind.annotation.ResponseBody;
import org.springframework.web.servlet.ModelAndView;
//import org.springframework.web.portlet.ModelAndView;
@Controller
public class StudentController {
@RequestMapping(value = “/student”, method = RequestMethod.GET)
public ModelAndView student() {
return new ModelAndView(“studentForm”, “command”, new Student());
}

@RequestMapping(value = “/addStudent”, method = RequestMethod.POST)
public @ResponseBody String addStudent(@ModelAttribute(“SpringWeb”)Student student) {

String studentStr = “{name:”+student.getName()+”,age:”+student.getAge()+”,id:”+student.getId()+”}”;

return studentStr;
}

}

 

The first method in the controller loads the form and the later one is executed when the submit button is clicked.

Step 4: Create Model

In this step data binding takes place which helps to bind the form data and transact via the controller. You must have already done this step while implementing spring custom controller. Create file Student.java and paste the following code:
package com.StudentController;

public class Student {
private Integer age;
private String name;
private Integer id;

public void setAge(Integer age) {
this.age = age;
}
public Integer getAge() {
return age;
}

public void setName(String name) {
this.name = name;
}
public String getName() {
return name;
}

public void setId(Integer id) {
this.id = id;
}
public Integer getId() {
return id;
}
}

Finally, run the project and call the student form by typing localhost:8080/project_name/student at the address bar of your browser. Fill some data into the form fields and there your are.

 

 

Window number 9

It was unfortunate to hear from the officer, ‘well, then take them in 15 days’. The initial question was : Sir, when should i come to collect my certificates? He uttered, come after 25 days. 25 days, I exclaimed! That’s too long, can you plz make it in 7 days, it’s extremely urgent. A potential pause was there, he took a long breathe eyes closed, feels like he got a feeling an internal annoy. He controls himself and responds politely: show me your letter of urgency and I will attach it with your application. He added, everybody claims urgent, everybody is in hurry to go abroad. I mourned. He proceeds, “Well, take them in 15 days”. Ok sir, I left the window.

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Was not in mood to argue rather put a couple of questions to myself. What exactly are the days that take to print and attest copy of certificates? Why did he reduce the days from 25 to 15 not 25 to 10 or 7 ? The later question arose because 10 days ago I applied for my two other certificates at the same place but different windows. The officer at window no 4 asked me to come after 25 days and after bargain he reduced directly to 7 days. The second one  at window no 10 also repeated the same number of days, 25 but after bargain he replied to come after 10 days.
I managed to collect both the documents after 10 days but today’s incident at window number 9, public dealing building, Delhi University made me feel different and asked myself why need bargain, why not an exact day 7, 10, 15, or 25? I am in a huge state of dillemma. Why reputed institutions like DU employs such stupid staffs?

The story is not over my friends, I went to collect my transcripts after 15 days at window no 9, the same officer checks his folder but finds no entry for my files and says to come on Monday next week. Disappointing,  I said: u called me in 10 12 days though I came after 15 days, sir plz do something. I have come here just for my certificates from Nepal and it’s already a month I am staying here. I lied. He gave me his personal no and asked me to call at 2pm the same day. At 2 pm I made him a call but he denied and conveyed that the transcript has not been printed yet. He asked me to come on Monday and promised me to deliver on that day.

It was so nice of the guy that he makes me a call on Monday and made me remember of my certificates but unfortunately I was out of station that day so I conveyed him to come on Wednesday. I felt sorry for calling him a stupid couple of days ago.

Anyway, I went there on Thursday, I reached at 10 o clock , guess what, all the windows were open except the concerned one. There were few other people waiting at window no 9 regarding concerns on Transcript. We asked the guards and staffs that when will the officer at 9 will arrive, they told that they have informed the officer and he will soon reach to his seat. Some guys had to submit the form so their files were accepted at window 7 but in order to collect we had to wait till the window opens. My bad luck. I called the officer to whom I submitted my application form but he told he was on leave and asked me to wait till 9 opens. 11 o clock and still it was closed. A madam at 7 prepared a gate pass and asked two of us to contact a higher concerned officer. We headed towards the office but on the way I received an urgent call and had to attend it. Hence, I waited outside at the gate and two of them went inside. After half an hour one comes out along with her degree and asks me to go inside to collect mine but I was not allowed to enter because I hadn’t a gate pass. My bad luck again.

I went immediately to fetch a pass to window 7 but what I saw was 9 was already opened, I felt a bit relieved and thought that things would be done this time. Unfortunately, when I showed my receipt to the new officer, he was not able to find my entry in his register and asked me to wait for another week. Gosh, My another bad luck, uff. I conveyed him that I have already talked with the previous officer but he wasn’t ready to do anything saying that he is new and he knows nothing.

After waiting for almost 15 minutes I made a call to the previous officer where he asked me to visit Mr. X at room 205. I took a pass from 7 and proceeded towards 205. I met Mr. X but he asked me to talk with Mrs. Y at G12 as she was the concerned one. No way I immediately proceeded there but the old lady was away from her desk. A lady with red top arrived who claimed herself from UK also applied for transcripts. She added, it had been a month but not yet received. We talked for a while regarding the issue when the old lady entered her cabin. We requested her to check our problem, she flipped some documents then humbly answered, “I haven’t received ur documents guys”. Then we insisted her to sort our problem, she visits different desks and searched for our documents . After some hit n trial she was able to find my one but unfortunately they were not signed and she asked me to come on Wednesday of next week. I got no option except leaving and simply headed towards my office. While leaving I asked the reason behind the delay which was the sort of staffs.

I went to DU again on 21st of June, Tuesday and finally was able to receive my required documents. This is how reputed institution in India works. “Ram Bharose“.